We have to talk

I miss him in the quiet

I hate it but I do

I’ve made some mistakes before

But I really fucked up with you

It hurts to see you move on

Knowing that I’m to blame

I’m glad you’re in a better place

I’m still filled with shame

What is happiness anyways?

And why does it mean so much?

I’ve torn apart a family

I’ve lost my only crutch

I’m sorry that I hurt you

In the process I hurt me to

And there’s no turning back now

No matter what I do

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Victimized 


I always act like the victim
Because I am the fucking victim
A victim of hatred
A victim of sin
When does the real sinning begin?
I hate myself
Especially my reflection
That causes your erection
That’s all I am
An erection

A constant imperfection

That shows no indiscretion 

Constantly losing my direction 

And tired of rejection 

And being up for subjection 

And suffering an infinite dissection

Then comes my objection 

Like a punch to my midsection 

I’m in need of some affection

And a little more protection

And in my future projections

I will find the right connection

Payback


What is it that im doing here?
I know this is a place to fear
But im not thinking very clear
I feel the end is creeping near

What is it i can do
To make you feel the truth
And know that we’re not through
How do i get to you

I want to pierce those piercing eyes
And crush your head between my thighs

Leave this world with no goodbyes

Here’s the payback for all your lies 

Haunted by the Living

I dreamed of you last night 

There just isn’t an escape 

Can’t get away whilst I’m sleeping

And haunted when I’m awake

I don’t want to dream of Shadows

Or feel this hollow pain

People have real problems 

Mine are in my brain 
Can’t handle this rejection

It eats at me everyday

My mind cannot escape him

It pulls me in separate ways 
Haunted by the living 

A tale we know to well

I’ve nothing left for giving 

And too much left to tell 

The dancing demon

Got to get you the fuck out of my head

You’re the demon I never should have fed

All I really wanted is you in my bed

And I’m left drowning in a sea of tears instead
We could have lived a life of total debauchery

If you hadn’t made me such a mockery

And made me go all stalkery 

What the fuck is wrong with me? 
Can anyone tell me the answer ?

When it comes to the truth he’s such a good dancer

Inside I’m such a disaster

And in the matter of my heart he is my master
I wish I could get him out of me

And that there was a cure for this heart disease

And that I could lay my mind at ease

But with tears in my eyes I’m still begging please
And as low as it makes me feel to plead

I’m still down on my hands and knees

Anything you want is free

If you just take this ride with me

So Dark

So sick of sadness

Tired of searching for light

I’ll never find happiness

So why not give up the fight
I’ve burned all my bridges

And changed all the locks

Handled all my business

I answer as hell knocks
What are they to do to me

Better than what’s going on here

I’d rather burn for all to see

Than live with all this fear
I thought that I was loved

Brittle little lie I told myself

I can’t go on this way 

I feel I need some help

Revelations

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Sleep deprivation
Is such an agitation
I need some medication
To escape this aggrivation
Im growing so impatient
With the constant alienation
i will withdraw my hesitation
And take down this whole nation
I need i new sensation
Besides this damnation
So stuck on this station
Drowning with no flotation
So filled up with this frustration
In need of revelation
Instead of soul starvation
Be my salvation
Give me my sedation
So i can give my proclamation
And rejoice in revelations

Monopoly

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You play me like I’m some game

As if I am the one that is to blame

And all it ends with for me is shame

Sadly though I’m still your dame

I still break my back in vain

knowing there will be only pain

you’re the only one who’ll gain

And I’ll be left in the cold wet rain

All it does is make me insane

Why can’t I get it through my brain

That you just don’t feel the same

And I will never have you tame

Miles

far-away-love

I still check my mail

with hope everytime

how is it that you’re able

to get me off your mind

let me know your secret

so i can be rid of this decay

so i can lose this regret

And you won’t feel so far away

you still find ways to punish me

even across all these miles

I still feel your heart beat

And picture our shared smiles

How is it you don’t feel this

your heart must be hard as stone

I wish that we didn’t exist

In this lie we both call “home”

Let Me Out!

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Remove these fucking chains

They’re making me insane

Putting demons in my brain

Take off these god damn shackles

That have always been my hassle

Since before i built this “castle”

Release me from my cell

So I can leave this hell

That I’ve come to know so well

Let me out of your cage

So I can release my rage

My world is not a stage

I deserve my freedom

So I can rule my kingdom

And I won’t feel so numb