Again and again

And here I am alone again

Here comes that hole again

Forgot to play my role again

Got myself feeling low again

Drown the heart you stole again

Your love takes its toll again

When will I feel whole again?

Starting to lose my control again

Fighting to save my soul again 

As it goes spiraling down the bowl again

Time for you to quit the show again 

I’m getting hit with “no” again

Feel I’ve nowhere to go again 

Trails of Blue

What is my deal with you?

You’re really not that great

But my heart runs away with you

And I am left with the fate
Why can’t I get away from this ?

No matter how hard I try 

But the moment that you insist

Into the lake of fire I fly
How can you even go on?

Hurting people the way you do?

Living with the pain you spawn? 

Leaving a trail of blue 

Black picket fences

I want to be your Gothic barbie 

And you my hedonistic Ken

And when we find our dream house

We can live our lives in sin
We can live in our dark paradise

Surrounded by fountains of blood

And we can fuck forever 

Like all dark lovers should
And if the light turns bright again

I shall be your dimmer 

And we shall find a place our way

Love, your sexy little sinner

Wasting time 

I suffer in the seconds

Seconds torment the hours

Every moment I’m not with you

We lose what once was ours
_____________________________How do you do it?

I really need to know

The moments are unbearable 

I need to let this go

_____________________________

How can you do this? 

What happened to your heart

The short distance grows more and more

Every moment that we’re apart

The dancing demon

Got to get you the fuck out of my head

You’re the demon I never should have fed

All I really wanted is you in my bed

And I’m left drowning in a sea of tears instead
We could have lived a life of total debauchery

If you hadn’t made me such a mockery

And made me go all stalkery 

What the fuck is wrong with me? 
Can anyone tell me the answer ?

When it comes to the truth he’s such a good dancer

Inside I’m such a disaster

And in the matter of my heart he is my master
I wish I could get him out of me

And that there was a cure for this heart disease

And that I could lay my mind at ease

But with tears in my eyes I’m still begging please
And as low as it makes me feel to plead

I’m still down on my hands and knees

Anything you want is free

If you just take this ride with me

Regrets? 


I want to run away with you

But my feet are cemented here

My head is always drifting

I live my life in fear 
I know I should let go of you 

But my heart holds its grip

I linger on ever word you say 

It’s so easy to slip
And though I live another life

I hold on tight to you

I’ve given you the best of me

You know this much is true 

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White knuckles 

I need to occupy my mind
Find a way within myself
To find what it is i need to find

I need to hold on to this light
Dont turn back to darkness
Just grab and hold on tight

With the white knuckle grip you have inside
You have come so far
Just hold on to your pride

I feel my tenacity faltering
I dont know what to do
I feel my mind realtering

I cannot keep my strength
I feel the poison build back up
I try to keep it at length

I hope its all over soon
If i cant go on without you
I fear it spells my doom

Someone Please

Someone kill me please

I can’t take this any more

I’m tired of feeling beaten down

And I’m tired of this floor
Someone kill me please

You would be doing me a service

I’ve got no place that feels like home

I’m tired of feeling useless
Someone kill me please

I’m out here on my own 

I acted like I didn’t need anyone 

And now my covers blown
Someone kill me please 

What else can I do 

Put me out of my misery

Let my story end with you

Lobotomy please?

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You just go on with your life
While im bogged down with memories
You are the one holding the knife
As i remember everything you ever said to me

What goes on in that head of yours
Whats hidden behind those eyes
That makes it easy to walk away from me
As you fill up my head with lies

Whats a girl supposed to do
When you wont get out of her head
I hope to one day forget about you
Hopefully before i am dead

Suffering sun

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I suffer in sunlight
I can’t see to find my way
I bask in my self pity
And pray for night each day

My solace lies in shadows
Where I can lie unseen
And walk about invisible
Find poetry in the obscene

Where are the other night walkers
Why must I walk alone
Maybe because I’m different
And even night walkers have a home