Trails of Blue

What is my deal with you?

You’re really not that great

But my heart runs away with you

And I am left with the fate
Why can’t I get away from this ?

No matter how hard I try 

But the moment that you insist

Into the lake of fire I fly
How can you even go on?

Hurting people the way you do?

Living with the pain you spawn? 

Leaving a trail of blue 

So Dark

So sick of sadness

Tired of searching for light

I’ll never find happiness

So why not give up the fight
I’ve burned all my bridges

And changed all the locks

Handled all my business

I answer as hell knocks
What are they to do to me

Better than what’s going on here

I’d rather burn for all to see

Than live with all this fear
I thought that I was loved

Brittle little lie I told myself

I can’t go on this way 

I feel I need some help

Someone Please

Someone kill me please

I can’t take this any more

I’m tired of feeling beaten down

And I’m tired of this floor
Someone kill me please

You would be doing me a service

I’ve got no place that feels like home

I’m tired of feeling useless
Someone kill me please

I’m out here on my own 

I acted like I didn’t need anyone 

And now my covers blown
Someone kill me please 

What else can I do 

Put me out of my misery

Let my story end with you

Envy

Why can’t I have what you have
I deserve it just as much
Why am I left with nothing
While your life is full of luck

Why must I work so hard
To never get anywhere
Whilst you have everything handed to you
Its almost too much to bare

Why can’t we switch lives
And you can walk the mile
While I lay back
And torture you with my smile

Why can’t I just enjoy what I have
Can I ever be happy with me
I just wish I didn’t feel this way
And i wish I wasn’t so green

I always end up right back at you

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All these moments that add up to life
They pick me apart and cut like a knife
And now I’m to be somebody’s wife

I want you but you’ve had your chance
All that was required was a little romance
But you just had to dance your little dance

Leaving me to walk around with this hole
Once filled with love for you that pierced  my “soul”
Once having you seemed my only goal

Then we made it even more complicated
As if that wasn’t already entirely overrated
And still inside my love never faded

And I don’t know what it is I want you to do
And I know how much pain we inflict with the truth
But all of the signs in my highway point back to you

Mental Purgatory

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Stuck in this purgatory
With no one to share my story
I wish he would come back from sea
I really just want him out of me

Still cant get him out of my head
Makes me feel im better off dead
All of these feelings constantly fed
Makes waking up fill me with dread

I swear that i seduce myself
Cant bring myself down so high on this shelf
You came crashing through no hint of stealth
And cost me my emotional wealth

I need you to come back to me
So together we both can be free
And together we’ll take on the sea
And escape from our purgatory

Do me a favor

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Somebody kill me please!

Just do me the honor

I’m down on my knees

I need to be rid of this disease

Put an end to this life

There’s nothing left for me

Nothing you say can ease

I’ve seen it all before

This is how it has got to be

I need my blood to  bleed

The sin is all around me

Can’t you hear my plea

You look right through me

Suffering pours through my eyes

 Yet you still can’t see

Oh just set my soul free

It’s my only ticket out

Read my eyes oh please

Monopoly

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You play me like I’m some game

As if I am the one that is to blame

And all it ends with for me is shame

Sadly though I’m still your dame

I still break my back in vain

knowing there will be only pain

you’re the only one who’ll gain

And I’ll be left in the cold wet rain

All it does is make me insane

Why can’t I get it through my brain

That you just don’t feel the same

And I will never have you tame