Bcause of You

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As I exist here lonely and weeping

The pornographic visions come creeping

as my heart continues sinking

don’t know what my brain was thinking

i knew in my heart of hearts

you would again tear me apart

and i would again be left in the dark

But i couldn’t help but let it start

Because it always comes down to you

and you always do those things that you do

even though my heart’s been true

I will always be your fool

So until the inevitable end

I will lend you more than an ear my friend

and the price I will tend

No matter what i have to spend

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No one but you

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Please come back to me

We’d barely just begun

The best is already over

And the worst is yet to come

You let me lie here bleeding tears

searching for my wrongdoings

whilst you walked away from me

as if you had no feelings

And while my heart still bleeds for you

I try to grow  fond for  another

I don’t know what else i could do

Because for me, there is no other

Do me a favor

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Somebody kill me please!

Just do me the honor

I’m down on my knees

I need to be rid of this disease

Put an end to this life

There’s nothing left for me

Nothing you say can ease

I’ve seen it all before

This is how it has got to be

I need my blood to  bleed

The sin is all around me

Can’t you hear my plea

You look right through me

Suffering pours through my eyes

 Yet you still can’t see

Oh just set my soul free

It’s my only ticket out

Read my eyes oh please

Can’t bare it

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Left to my own thoughts

My brain is going to rot

I just want to be shot

Because i can forget you not

My brain tells my heart to beware

But my heart doesn’t want to play fair

It’s almost more than I can bare

It makes It harder that you’re not aware

Always left to my own devices

Then my life fills up with vices

And nothing i do ever suffices

And deep into the core of my being it slices

Between the two

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I need to choose between the two

but between them i don’t have a clue

they both have there pros and cons

And make me feel like i don’t belong

either which way i choose to choose

in the end I’ll probably lose

I love them both this much is true

Oh what is it that I’m going to do

all this i thought was behind me

but he just won’t let me be

and i love him with all my heart

but we’re a million miles apart

And then i have what I’ve always known

makes me feel like I’m at home

But he is a little unfair

and treats me as if I’m not there

I just miss that hot passion

And doing the things we’ve only imagined

So i don’t know what I’m going to do

Maybe I won’t choose either of you

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Can’t break through

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Why is this love so irreversible

It’s like you’ve pulled out your whole arsenal

made yourself out to be irreplaceable

It’s like i can’t escape you

no matter how many miles it turns into

i know you’ll never follow through

I wish our love would expire

but you fulfill my every desire

And set my head and heart on fire

Let Me Out!

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Remove these fucking chains

They’re making me insane

Putting demons in my brain

Take off these god damn shackles

That have always been my hassle

Since before i built this “castle”

Release me from my cell

So I can leave this hell

That I’ve come to know so well

Let me out of your cage

So I can release my rage

My world is not a stage

I deserve my freedom

So I can rule my kingdom

And I won’t feel so numb

I’m asking

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please leave me alone

i don’t really care

how great your life is

because mine is unfair

 

please leave me alone

i just want to die

nothing to live for

and i do nothing but cry

 

please leave me alone

i don’t want to see you

i can’t trust you people

you all are deceitful

 

please leave me alone

i just need a break

before i lose my cool

and make another mistake

 

please leave me alone

can’t you see i’ve had enough

i was already broken

even though i act tough

 

please leave me alone

i don’t feel like you do

we’re not the same

your intentions untrue

 

please leave me alone

this has come to an end

i no longer trust you

you’re no longer my friend

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I am empty

devoid of feelings

wish i didn’t exist

tired of these dealings

 

I can not escape my heart

It works against me with each beating

Turning myself against me

Old wounds never healing

 

It has made me a sort of zombie

An outer shell of my former self

Why can’t I put all of you behind me

Place you back up on the shelf

 

I’ve built this life around me

Built with forced happiness and half truths

Please come back and find me

And help me pull out all these roots

 

 

 

 

Go Ahead Then

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Why do you hate me now?

I swear i’ve been nothing but good

I’ve done all the things you’ve asked of me

Done all the things i know i should

 

Why do you hate me now?

I’ve done you no wrong

I promise I’ve been right here

Trying to keep us strong

 

Why do you hate me now?

Why do i even care

Cause the harder i even try

you make it more unfair