Victimized

I always act like the victim
Because I am the fucking victim
A victim of hatred
A victim of sin
When does the real sinning begin?
I hate myself
Especially my reflection
That causes your erection
That’s all I am
An erection

A constant imperfection

That shows no indiscretion 

Constantly losing my direction 

And tired of rejection 

And being up for subjection 

And suffering an infinite dissection

Then comes my objection 

Like a punch to my midsection 

I’m in need of some affection

And a little more protection

And in my future projections

I will find the right connection

Condemnation

As the sand flows through the glass

I look at how much time has passed

And how i’ve sailed through life half mast

And how i want you to be first and last

But you put me to the side

in such a way that i despise

But i’ll give in when i see those eyes

to you this comes as no surprise

I’ll follow you to the bitter end

And always try to remain your friend

Even when it falls out of trend

In this love im perpetually condemned

Do me a favor

Somebody kill me please!

Just do me the honor

I’m down on my knees

I need to be rid of this disease

Put an end to this life

There’s nothing left for me

Nothing you say can ease

I’ve seen it all before

This is how it has got to be

I need my blood to  bleed

The sin is all around me

Can’t you hear my plea

You look right through me

Suffering pours through my eyes

 Yet you still can’t see

Oh just set my soul free

It’s my only ticket out

Read my eyes oh please

Monopoly

You play me like I’m some game

As if I am the one that is to blame

And all it ends with for me is shame

Sadly though I’m still your dame

I still break my back in vain

knowing there will be only pain

you’re the only one who’ll gain

And I’ll be left in the cold wet rain

All it does is make me insane

Why can’t I get it through my brain

That you just don’t feel the same

And I will never have you tame

Fake it to make it

 

Don’t want to hide

Just want to be me

Want friends in which i can confide

And want to feel free

 

I want so many things

Hard to pin them all down

Hard to spread my wings

Difficult not to drown

 

How long must i go on like this?

Hollowed out on the inside

How long must I be dismissed?

This is why I hide