someday rationalization will conquer all
someday my heart won’t forsake me
someday I shall learn not to fall
someday I’ll be there for me
someday I won’t need you at all
someday I’ll refuse your fee
someday might never come
someday I’ll know that to be true
someday I’ll have nothing to shrink from
I am empty
devoid of feelings
wish i didn’t exist
tired of these dealings
I can not escape my heart
It works against me with each beating
Turning myself against me
Old wounds never healing
It has made me a sort of zombie
An outer shell of my former self
Why can’t I put all of you behind me
Place you back up on the shelf
I’ve built this life around me
Built with forced happiness and half truths
Please come back and find me
And help me pull out all these roots
How dare you share the same blood as me
You don’t deserve the right
To even breathe the same air as me
Or look at me in spite
I want to take you down a notch
Teach you a thing or two
And least of all of things I may want
Is anything to do with you
You can rot in hell Fuck You!
You deserve to fry!
I can bear no more of this nonsense
And you just need to die
So before I offer your pennance
Do you have any last words
Because you my wretched sister
Are going to feed the birds
How do I stop all these feelings
When all this time has passed
And I still feel the exact same way
As when I saw you last
How do I tell myself no
When you still cross my mind
And I can not escape you
No matter how far I run blind
How do I live like this
All twisted up inside
With no one left to talk to
And nowhere left to hide
How do you not feel this
When it’s so intense for me
How do I escape this endless circle
Of to be or not to be
?
Why do you hate me now?
I swear i’ve been nothing but good
I’ve done all the things you’ve asked of me
Done all the things i know i should
Why do you hate me now?
I’ve done you no wrong
I promise I’ve been right here
Trying to keep us strong
Why do you hate me now?
Why do i even care
Cause the harder i even try
you make it more unfair
Dearly Departed Rose 