So many some days 

I’m so drunk with remembrance

And melancholy with hope 

My feet so tired from this dance 

It’s time to noose the rope 
I am ready to walk this walk

And drift you out to sea

You can’t even talk the talk

And you just can’t let me be 
I don’t know who “me” is anymore 

I’m lost all along the way 

And I’m fearful of what’s in store 

And the price I’ll have to pay
And if you all remember me 

Remember me today

With grievances in my eyes 

And a heart full of someday 

Again and again

And here I am alone again

Here comes that hole again

Forgot to play my role again

Got myself feeling low again

Drown the heart you stole again

Your love takes its toll again

When will I feel whole again?

Starting to lose my control again

Fighting to save my soul again 

As it goes spiraling down the bowl again

Time for you to quit the show again 

I’m getting hit with “no” again

Feel I’ve nowhere to go again 

Trails of Blue

What is my deal with you?

You’re really not that great

But my heart runs away with you

And I am left with the fate
Why can’t I get away from this ?

No matter how hard I try 

But the moment that you insist

Into the lake of fire I fly
How can you even go on?

Hurting people the way you do?

Living with the pain you spawn? 

Leaving a trail of blue 

Black picket fences

I want to be your Gothic barbie 

And you my hedonistic Ken

And when we find our dream house

We can live our lives in sin
We can live in our dark paradise

Surrounded by fountains of blood

And we can fuck forever 

Like all dark lovers should
And if the light turns bright again

I shall be your dimmer 

And we shall find a place our way

Love, your sexy little sinner

Self afflicted 


I’m sick of being my own enemy

I want to fuck life up

I want to take down this town

I’m going to fucking erupt

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Such a bad taste in my mouth 

And a belly filled with hate

You will not fuck with me this time

You can no longer escape your fate

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You always get away with this

I can’t stand idly by

While you move on with your life

I want to watch you fry

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So go ahead come on fuck with me again

But I promise I’ll watch you go down

I can’t even be your friend

Be prepared to drown 

Wasting time 

I suffer in the seconds

Seconds torment the hours

Every moment I’m not with you

We lose what once was ours
_____________________________How do you do it?

I really need to know

The moments are unbearable 

I need to let this go

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How can you do this? 

What happened to your heart

The short distance grows more and more

Every moment that we’re apart

The dancing demon

Got to get you the fuck out of my head

You’re the demon I never should have fed

All I really wanted is you in my bed

And I’m left drowning in a sea of tears instead
We could have lived a life of total debauchery

If you hadn’t made me such a mockery

And made me go all stalkery 

What the fuck is wrong with me? 
Can anyone tell me the answer ?

When it comes to the truth he’s such a good dancer

Inside I’m such a disaster

And in the matter of my heart he is my master
I wish I could get him out of me

And that there was a cure for this heart disease

And that I could lay my mind at ease

But with tears in my eyes I’m still begging please
And as low as it makes me feel to plead

I’m still down on my hands and knees

Anything you want is free

If you just take this ride with me

Undeniable 

I wish i didn’t miss you

I wish I didn’t care

I wish you would be true to me

I wish this was all more fair
What is it that you want from me? 

I’m feeling used again

And next time you come back around

Could I even be your friend?
I’ll always wait around for you

A truth I can’t deny

And maybe you’ll find some worth in me

And let the years stop passing by

If only words could express

You

With your silver tongue and autumn eyes

With your talk of a captivating utopia

You’re my demon in disguise
You

Causing my auto erotic fantasies

That leave me completely sybaritic 

And fill me with complete vanity
You 

With your libidinous smile

That fills me with amatory lust

Enough to make lesser women go senile
You

With your lascivious imagination

So sexy and diabolical

Made as if by my own personal creation
You 

Completely under my skin

Feeling completely consumed

Ready for the sin to begin
You 

Never completely mine

Fill me with otherworldly desire

Please don’t let go this time 

Addicted 

I’m a sex addict the internal disease 

I want them all to use me

To do just as they please
I want them all to make me their whore

Leave me lying here on this floor

Make me beg for more and more
I want my insides all filled up

I want to feel you erupt

Until you feel you’ve had enough
So come on baby abuse me

I promise you’ll never lose me

And we can live in exctasy