Bullet

I didn’t think you’d come back this time 

I thought I made it clear 

Without you I’m not fine 

But you’ll always dissappear 
I don’t know what I see in you 

I deserve so much better

And if you’d only stay away 

I could release this vision of together
But you’re just here to fuck with me

To make sure I lose my mind 

Leave me with all these maybes 

So I know I’ll never be “fine”
I can’t get away from you 

No matter how fast and far I run

Nothing I wouldn’t do for you

The bullet to your gun 

Goodbye again 

 

If you cared you wouldn’t talk to me

You would leave me to get a life 

I’m tired of relinquishing  power to you

And you revel in twisting the knife
I’m sorry it has to be this way

I thought you were the one

But you wanted me for convenience 

I was just for fun
And as much as it pains me

I have to walk away

I need to step back into reality

And I’ve finally nothing more to say 

Again and again

And here I am alone again

Here comes that hole again

Forgot to play my role again

Got myself feeling low again

Drown the heart you stole again

Your love takes its toll again

When will I feel whole again?

Starting to lose my control again

Fighting to save my soul again 

As it goes spiraling down the bowl again

Time for you to quit the show again 

I’m getting hit with “no” again

Feel I’ve nowhere to go again 

Trails of Blue

What is my deal with you?

You’re really not that great

But my heart runs away with you

And I am left with the fate
Why can’t I get away from this ?

No matter how hard I try 

But the moment that you insist

Into the lake of fire I fly
How can you even go on?

Hurting people the way you do?

Living with the pain you spawn? 

Leaving a trail of blue 

One day….


So sick of saying one day

Why can’t that be now

I’m sick of this fake life I lead

I wish that I knew how
Why didn’t I just feel

And go with what I wanted

Instead of doing the right thing

And now my life feels stunted 
I hope there is a one day

I know I slighted myself 

And you took my.chance away

And put me back on the shelf

Black picket fences

I want to be your Gothic barbie 

And you my hedonistic Ken

And when we find our dream house

We can live our lives in sin
We can live in our dark paradise

Surrounded by fountains of blood

And we can fuck forever 

Like all dark lovers should
And if the light turns bright again

I shall be your dimmer 

And we shall find a place our way

Love, your sexy little sinner

Self afflicted 


I’m sick of being my own enemy

I want to fuck life up

I want to take down this town

I’m going to fucking erupt

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Such a bad taste in my mouth 

And a belly filled with hate

You will not fuck with me this time

You can no longer escape your fate

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You always get away with this

I can’t stand idly by

While you move on with your life

I want to watch you fry

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So go ahead come on fuck with me again

But I promise I’ll watch you go down

I can’t even be your friend

Be prepared to drown 

Wasting time 

I suffer in the seconds

Seconds torment the hours

Every moment I’m not with you

We lose what once was ours
_____________________________How do you do it?

I really need to know

The moments are unbearable 

I need to let this go

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How can you do this? 

What happened to your heart

The short distance grows more and more

Every moment that we’re apart

The dancing demon

Got to get you the fuck out of my head

You’re the demon I never should have fed

All I really wanted is you in my bed

And I’m left drowning in a sea of tears instead
We could have lived a life of total debauchery

If you hadn’t made me such a mockery

And made me go all stalkery 

What the fuck is wrong with me? 
Can anyone tell me the answer ?

When it comes to the truth he’s such a good dancer

Inside I’m such a disaster

And in the matter of my heart he is my master
I wish I could get him out of me

And that there was a cure for this heart disease

And that I could lay my mind at ease

But with tears in my eyes I’m still begging please
And as low as it makes me feel to plead

I’m still down on my hands and knees

Anything you want is free

If you just take this ride with me

Undeniable 

I wish i didn’t miss you

I wish I didn’t care

I wish you would be true to me

I wish this was all more fair
What is it that you want from me? 

I’m feeling used again

And next time you come back around

Could I even be your friend?
I’ll always wait around for you

A truth I can’t deny

And maybe you’ll find some worth in me

And let the years stop passing by