So many some days 

I’m so drunk with remembrance

And melancholy with hope 

My feet so tired from this dance 

It’s time to noose the rope 
I am ready to walk this walk

And drift you out to sea

You can’t even talk the talk

And you just can’t let me be 
I don’t know who “me” is anymore 

I’m lost all along the way 

And I’m fearful of what’s in store 

And the price I’ll have to pay
And if you all remember me 

Remember me today

With grievances in my eyes 

And a heart full of someday 

Trails of Blue

What is my deal with you?

You’re really not that great

But my heart runs away with you

And I am left with the fate
Why can’t I get away from this ?

No matter how hard I try 

But the moment that you insist

Into the lake of fire I fly
How can you even go on?

Hurting people the way you do?

Living with the pain you spawn? 

Leaving a trail of blue 

One day….


So sick of saying one day

Why can’t that be now

I’m sick of this fake life I lead

I wish that I knew how
Why didn’t I just feel

And go with what I wanted

Instead of doing the right thing

And now my life feels stunted 
I hope there is a one day

I know I slighted myself 

And you took my.chance away

And put me back on the shelf

Black picket fences

I want to be your Gothic barbie 

And you my hedonistic Ken

And when we find our dream house

We can live our lives in sin
We can live in our dark paradise

Surrounded by fountains of blood

And we can fuck forever 

Like all dark lovers should
And if the light turns bright again

I shall be your dimmer 

And we shall find a place our way

Love, your sexy little sinner

The dancing demon

Got to get you the fuck out of my head

You’re the demon I never should have fed

All I really wanted is you in my bed

And I’m left drowning in a sea of tears instead
We could have lived a life of total debauchery

If you hadn’t made me such a mockery

And made me go all stalkery 

What the fuck is wrong with me? 
Can anyone tell me the answer ?

When it comes to the truth he’s such a good dancer

Inside I’m such a disaster

And in the matter of my heart he is my master
I wish I could get him out of me

And that there was a cure for this heart disease

And that I could lay my mind at ease

But with tears in my eyes I’m still begging please
And as low as it makes me feel to plead

I’m still down on my hands and knees

Anything you want is free

If you just take this ride with me

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White knuckles 

I need to occupy my mind
Find a way within myself
To find what it is i need to find

I need to hold on to this light
Dont turn back to darkness
Just grab and hold on tight

With the white knuckle grip you have inside
You have come so far
Just hold on to your pride

I feel my tenacity faltering
I dont know what to do
I feel my mind realtering

I cannot keep my strength
I feel the poison build back up
I try to keep it at length

I hope its all over soon
If i cant go on without you
I fear it spells my doom

So Dark

So sick of sadness

Tired of searching for light

I’ll never find happiness

So why not give up the fight
I’ve burned all my bridges

And changed all the locks

Handled all my business

I answer as hell knocks
What are they to do to me

Better than what’s going on here

I’d rather burn for all to see

Than live with all this fear
I thought that I was loved

Brittle little lie I told myself

I can’t go on this way 

I feel I need some help

Someone Please

Someone kill me please

I can’t take this any more

I’m tired of feeling beaten down

And I’m tired of this floor
Someone kill me please

You would be doing me a service

I’ve got no place that feels like home

I’m tired of feeling useless
Someone kill me please

I’m out here on my own 

I acted like I didn’t need anyone 

And now my covers blown
Someone kill me please 

What else can I do 

Put me out of my misery

Let my story end with you

I Am Darkness

I am the darkness

I am that being that puts the chill in your bones

The breath on the back of your neck
I am the very definition of evil 

A succubus

Don’t tempt me 
Betrayal beckons 

No one ever came for me

As no one will come for you
I am the scream of terror in the night 

The shadow in the trees

The creaking in your home at night
I am your invisible enemy

Just watching 

Waiting for my opportunity to feed 
I am your worst nightmare 

The dark cloud hanging over your thoughts

The sounds of the night that instill fear

I always end up right back at you

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All these moments that add up to life
They pick me apart and cut like a knife
And now I’m to be somebody’s wife

I want you but you’ve had your chance
All that was required was a little romance
But you just had to dance your little dance

Leaving me to walk around with this hole
Once filled with love for you that pierced  my “soul”
Once having you seemed my only goal

Then we made it even more complicated
As if that wasn’t already entirely overrated
And still inside my love never faded

And I don’t know what it is I want you to do
And I know how much pain we inflict with the truth
But all of the signs in my highway point back to you