Victimized

I always act like the victim
Because I am the fucking victim
A victim of hatred
A victim of sin
When does the real sinning begin?
I hate myself
Especially my reflection
That causes your erection
That’s all I am
An erection

A constant imperfection

That shows no indiscretion 

Constantly losing my direction 

And tired of rejection 

And being up for subjection 

And suffering an infinite dissection

Then comes my objection 

Like a punch to my midsection 

I’m in need of some affection

And a little more protection

And in my future projections

I will find the right connection

His secret

I want to be your secret 

But a terrific one to tell

But if you’d just let me out sometimes

I know I’d fair you well
I do like our special secret 

But I just want to breathe

Fill up this little hole inside 

And feel the wind shake my leaves 
I love our little secret

But don’t you miss the world? 

We could still be alone our own way

I’ll always be you’re girl 
And I can keep a secret 

So please just set me free 

And when I have my freedom 

I promise you will see 

Bullet

I didn’t think you’d come back this time 

I thought I made it clear 

Without you I’m not fine 

But you’ll always dissappear 
I don’t know what I see in you 

I deserve so much better

And if you’d only stay away 

I could release this vision of together
But you’re just here to fuck with me

To make sure I lose my mind 

Leave me with all these maybes 

So I know I’ll never be “fine”
I can’t get away from you 

No matter how fast and far I run

Nothing I wouldn’t do for you

The bullet to your gun 

Crimson eyes

She had away of defying authority

That made her seem like a bitch

To most of the majority

She had this icy stare

That built the wall

Too prove she didn’t care

she had this way she bit her lips

That caused my  blood to rise

with each sway of those hips

I die a little inside

she can’t see what her worth is

and the world doesn’t seem to care

to her the world seems hopeless

and life seems so unfair

But i see what she tries to hide

The demons that all reside

Behind those crimson eyes

Parents

You rip my heart right open

Then laugh right in my face

you take my life away from me

And scream i wanted space

You knew what i had meant

and chose the spiteful road instead

the road you walk looks lonely

I’ll see you when you’re dead

Statistics

She was only seventeen

but quite a troubled soul

she lost her life to love

or so the stories told

She just wanted to belong somewhere

needed desperately to fit in

she took the road to nowhere

And filled her life up with sin

And although she wasn’t innocent

She was too young to know the signs

Her life taken in an instant

Because she crossed his “lines”

Can’t bare it

Left to my own thoughts

My brain is going to rot

I just want to be shot

Because i can forget you not

My brain tells my heart to beware

But my heart doesn’t want to play fair

It’s almost more than I can bare

It makes It harder that you’re not aware

Always left to my own devices

Then my life fills up with vices

And nothing i do ever suffices

And deep into the core of my being it slices

Between the two

I need to choose between the two

but between them i don’t have a clue

they both have there pros and cons

And make me feel like i don’t belong

either which way i choose to choose

in the end I’ll probably lose

I love them both this much is true

Oh what is it that I’m going to do

all this i thought was behind me

but he just won’t let me be

and i love him with all my heart

but we’re a million miles apart

And then i have what I’ve always known

makes me feel like I’m at home

But he is a little unfair

and treats me as if I’m not there

I just miss that hot passion

And doing the things we’ve only imagined

So i don’t know what I’m going to do

Maybe I won’t choose either of you

Monopoly

You play me like I’m some game

As if I am the one that is to blame

And all it ends with for me is shame

Sadly though I’m still your dame

I still break my back in vain

knowing there will be only pain

you’re the only one who’ll gain

And I’ll be left in the cold wet rain

All it does is make me insane

Why can’t I get it through my brain

That you just don’t feel the same

And I will never have you tame

Rewind

Okay here we go let’s press rewind

And we’ll go around another time

except this time I won’t be blind

And maybe you will make up your mind

All i need from you is to keep your word

Don’t act as if my proposal’s absurd

As if it’s like nothing that you’ve heard

because you know all that has transferred

so don’t lie to my fucking face

Or i will leave you a fucking disgrace

And how i love the way you taste

i can still feel our last embrace

shoot me up with all your lines

and help me leave this world behind

take me away I’m outta my mind

I shouldn’t have done this I should of declined

Because you’re only here to wreck me

And i can’t just leave you be

Even though i can still foresee

the ending where my heart will plea