We have to talk

I miss him in the quiet

I hate it but I do

I’ve made some mistakes before

But I really fucked up with you

It hurts to see you move on

Knowing that I’m to blame

I’m glad you’re in a better place

I’m still filled with shame

What is happiness anyways?

And why does it mean so much?

I’ve torn apart a family

I’ve lost my only crutch

I’m sorry that I hurt you

In the process I hurt me to

And there’s no turning back now

No matter what I do

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Victimized 


I always act like the victim
Because I am the fucking victim
A victim of hatred
A victim of sin
When does the real sinning begin?
I hate myself
Especially my reflection
That causes your erection
That’s all I am
An erection

A constant imperfection

That shows no indiscretion 

Constantly losing my direction 

And tired of rejection 

And being up for subjection 

And suffering an infinite dissection

Then comes my objection 

Like a punch to my midsection 

I’m in need of some affection

And a little more protection

And in my future projections

I will find the right connection

Dear John 

Don’t want to end you

But what can I do

I need to get a life 

Not go this round with you
Were both unhappy 

And life isn’t fair

Thought we were forever

But you just didn’t care 
Can’t place all the blame on you

I’ll take my share of the burden 

I can admit I’m wrong 

If I could ever get a word in 
I wanted to make you better

But you will never change 

And so for are family 

I’ll have to rearrange 
Because our kids aren’t happy 

And neither are we

So I’ll whittle us down

From 4 down to 3

Payback


What is it that im doing here?
I know this is a place to fear
But im not thinking very clear
I feel the end is creeping near

What is it i can do
To make you feel the truth
And know that we’re not through
How do i get to you

I want to pierce those piercing eyes
And crush your head between my thighs

Leave this world with no goodbyes

Here’s the payback for all your lies 

Do me a favor

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Somebody kill me please!

Just do me the honor

I’m down on my knees

I need to be rid of this disease

Put an end to this life

There’s nothing left for me

Nothing you say can ease

I’ve seen it all before

This is how it has got to be

I need my blood to  bleed

The sin is all around me

Can’t you hear my plea

You look right through me

Suffering pours through my eyes

 Yet you still can’t see

Oh just set my soul free

It’s my only ticket out

Read my eyes oh please

Statistics

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She was only seventeen

but quite a troubled soul

she lost her life to love

or so the stories told

She just wanted to belong somewhere

needed desperately to fit in

she took the road to nowhere

And filled her life up with sin

And although she wasn’t innocent

She was too young to know the signs

Her life taken in an instant

Because she crossed his “lines”

Can’t bare it

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Left to my own thoughts

My brain is going to rot

I just want to be shot

Because i can forget you not

My brain tells my heart to beware

But my heart doesn’t want to play fair

It’s almost more than I can bare

It makes It harder that you’re not aware

Always left to my own devices

Then my life fills up with vices

And nothing i do ever suffices

And deep into the core of my being it slices

Monopoly

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You play me like I’m some game

As if I am the one that is to blame

And all it ends with for me is shame

Sadly though I’m still your dame

I still break my back in vain

knowing there will be only pain

you’re the only one who’ll gain

And I’ll be left in the cold wet rain

All it does is make me insane

Why can’t I get it through my brain

That you just don’t feel the same

And I will never have you tame

Spree!

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I want to watch her blood run

Pour forth from her flesh

I’m about to become undone

You shouldn’t have loved her best

I need the streets to run red

To relinquish all of this heat

I wish all of you dead

I will stab you on repeat

I want to taste you pretty ones

The one’s without a care

Lock up all your daughters and sons

Or they will pay the fare

For I will have my vengeance

For what’s been done to me

Release all of my tensions

On my killing spree