Victimized 


I always act like the victim
Because I am the fucking victim
A victim of hatred
A victim of sin
When does the real sinning begin?
I hate myself
Especially my reflection
That causes your erection
That’s all I am
An erection

A constant imperfection

That shows no indiscretion 

Constantly losing my direction 

And tired of rejection 

And being up for subjection 

And suffering an infinite dissection

Then comes my objection 

Like a punch to my midsection 

I’m in need of some affection

And a little more protection

And in my future projections

I will find the right connection

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Mental Purgatory

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Stuck in this purgatory
With no one to share my story
I wish he would come back from sea
I really just want him out of me

Still cant get him out of my head
Makes me feel im better off dead
All of these feelings constantly fed
Makes waking up fill me with dread

I swear that i seduce myself
Cant bring myself down so high on this shelf
You came crashing through no hint of stealth
And cost me my emotional wealth

I need you to come back to me
So together we both can be free
And together we’ll take on the sea
And escape from our purgatory

Internal conflict

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Why cant i fight this feeling
Building deep inside
Why do i keep these secrets
And always try to hide

I fear they may be right about me
I live a double life
I show one side to others
But darkness lies inside

I need to get away from me
I hate the way i am
And all the ones who love me
Participate in my sham

I dont know how to change this path
Seems i’ll always live in shadow
I have no one left to blame but me
I’ve surrendered in this battle

Crimson eyes

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She had away of defying authority

That made her seem like a bitch

To most of the majority

She had this icy stare

That built the wall

Too prove she didn’t care

she had this way she bit her lips

That caused my  blood to rise

with each sway of those hips

I die a little inside

she can’t see what her worth is

and the world doesn’t seem to care

to her the world seems hopeless

and life seems so unfair

But i see what she tries to hide

The demons that all reside

Behind those crimson eyes

Can’t bare it

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Left to my own thoughts

My brain is going to rot

I just want to be shot

Because i can forget you not

My brain tells my heart to beware

But my heart doesn’t want to play fair

It’s almost more than I can bare

It makes It harder that you’re not aware

Always left to my own devices

Then my life fills up with vices

And nothing i do ever suffices

And deep into the core of my being it slices

Monopoly

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You play me like I’m some game

As if I am the one that is to blame

And all it ends with for me is shame

Sadly though I’m still your dame

I still break my back in vain

knowing there will be only pain

you’re the only one who’ll gain

And I’ll be left in the cold wet rain

All it does is make me insane

Why can’t I get it through my brain

That you just don’t feel the same

And I will never have you tame

Spree!

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I want to watch her blood run

Pour forth from her flesh

I’m about to become undone

You shouldn’t have loved her best

I need the streets to run red

To relinquish all of this heat

I wish all of you dead

I will stab you on repeat

I want to taste you pretty ones

The one’s without a care

Lock up all your daughters and sons

Or they will pay the fare

For I will have my vengeance

For what’s been done to me

Release all of my tensions

On my killing spree