We have to talk

I miss him in the quiet

I hate it but I do

I’ve made some mistakes before

But I really fucked up with you

It hurts to see you move on

Knowing that I’m to blame

I’m glad you’re in a better place

I’m still filled with shame

What is happiness anyways?

And why does it mean so much?

I’ve torn apart a family

I’ve lost my only crutch

I’m sorry that I hurt you

In the process I hurt me to

And there’s no turning back now

No matter what I do

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My little horror story
My sordid tale to tell
So if you’ll follow me
I’ll take you to my hell

When I was just a girl
The devil came to me
He showed me I was a woman
I could never get clean

Your Jesus never washed me
The blood was my reminder
No one ever came for me
The world was never unkinder

I never had a white horsed prince
Just a beast in ratty jeans
With no one to hold my hands
My wounds still left unclean

Every girl has a horror story
Her own sordid tale to tell
I’ve told you some of mine
A little piece of my hell

Bcause of You

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As I exist here lonely and weeping

The pornographic visions come creeping

as my heart continues sinking

don’t know what my brain was thinking

i knew in my heart of hearts

you would again tear me apart

and i would again be left in the dark

But i couldn’t help but let it start

Because it always comes down to you

and you always do those things that you do

even though my heart’s been true

I will always be your fool

So until the inevitable end

I will lend you more than an ear my friend

and the price I will tend

No matter what i have to spend

No one but you

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Please come back to me

We’d barely just begun

The best is already over

And the worst is yet to come

You let me lie here bleeding tears

searching for my wrongdoings

whilst you walked away from me

as if you had no feelings

And while my heart still bleeds for you

I try to grow  fond for  another

I don’t know what else i could do

Because for me, there is no other

Can’t bare it

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Left to my own thoughts

My brain is going to rot

I just want to be shot

Because i can forget you not

My brain tells my heart to beware

But my heart doesn’t want to play fair

It’s almost more than I can bare

It makes It harder that you’re not aware

Always left to my own devices

Then my life fills up with vices

And nothing i do ever suffices

And deep into the core of my being it slices

Between the two

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I need to choose between the two

but between them i don’t have a clue

they both have there pros and cons

And make me feel like i don’t belong

either which way i choose to choose

in the end I’ll probably lose

I love them both this much is true

Oh what is it that I’m going to do

all this i thought was behind me

but he just won’t let me be

and i love him with all my heart

but we’re a million miles apart

And then i have what I’ve always known

makes me feel like I’m at home

But he is a little unfair

and treats me as if I’m not there

I just miss that hot passion

And doing the things we’ve only imagined

So i don’t know what I’m going to do

Maybe I won’t choose either of you

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Can’t break through

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Why is this love so irreversible

It’s like you’ve pulled out your whole arsenal

made yourself out to be irreplaceable

It’s like i can’t escape you

no matter how many miles it turns into

i know you’ll never follow through

I wish our love would expire

but you fulfill my every desire

And set my head and heart on fire

Like Me

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Oh Benjamin, How could you

Be so heartless to me

Leave me on your backburner,

Let me drift off into the sea

It’s killing what’s left inside

As anyone could tell

I’m so sick of this depression

This face I wear so well

I just want you to love me

Not push me to the side

I wish we could be together

That we no longer had to hide

I don’t see what you see in her

Anyone could tell it’s not meant to be

Because no matter how hard she tries

She’s never going to be me

Serial Acts of Violence

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I am going to punch you

Smash you in your fucking face

Don’t act like you don’t deserve it

You are a disgrace to this race

I am going to devour you

Roast you in my stew

You can choose your seasonings

It’s the least that you could do

I am going to slice you

And enjoy it as I do

They won’t remember what you looked like

When I get through with you

I am going to peel you

One layer at a time

And as you scream out in agony

I’ll revel, How divine!

And when there is nothing left

I’ll leave you there to bleed

You’ve done this to yourself you see

With your hatefulness and greed