Payback


What is it that im doing here?
I know this is a place to fear
But im not thinking very clear
I feel the end is creeping near

What is it i can do
To make you feel the truth
And know that we’re not through
How do i get to you

I want to pierce those piercing eyes
And crush your head between my thighs

Leave this world with no goodbyes

Here’s the payback for all your lies 

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Bullet

I didn’t think you’d come back this time 

I thought I made it clear 

Without you I’m not fine 

But you’ll always dissappear 
I don’t know what I see in you 

I deserve so much better

And if you’d only stay away 

I could release this vision of together
But you’re just here to fuck with me

To make sure I lose my mind 

Leave me with all these maybes 

So I know I’ll never be “fine”
I can’t get away from you 

No matter how fast and far I run

Nothing I wouldn’t do for you

The bullet to your gun 

Goodbye again 

 

If you cared you wouldn’t talk to me

You would leave me to get a life 

I’m tired of relinquishing  power to you

And you revel in twisting the knife
I’m sorry it has to be this way

I thought you were the one

But you wanted me for convenience 

I was just for fun
And as much as it pains me

I have to walk away

I need to step back into reality

And I’ve finally nothing more to say 

One day….


So sick of saying one day

Why can’t that be now

I’m sick of this fake life I lead

I wish that I knew how
Why didn’t I just feel

And go with what I wanted

Instead of doing the right thing

And now my life feels stunted 
I hope there is a one day

I know I slighted myself 

And you took my.chance away

And put me back on the shelf

Black picket fences

I want to be your Gothic barbie 

And you my hedonistic Ken

And when we find our dream house

We can live our lives in sin
We can live in our dark paradise

Surrounded by fountains of blood

And we can fuck forever 

Like all dark lovers should
And if the light turns bright again

I shall be your dimmer 

And we shall find a place our way

Love, your sexy little sinner

Self afflicted 


I’m sick of being my own enemy

I want to fuck life up

I want to take down this town

I’m going to fucking erupt

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Such a bad taste in my mouth 

And a belly filled with hate

You will not fuck with me this time

You can no longer escape your fate

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You always get away with this

I can’t stand idly by

While you move on with your life

I want to watch you fry

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So go ahead come on fuck with me again

But I promise I’ll watch you go down

I can’t even be your friend

Be prepared to drown 

The dancing demon

Got to get you the fuck out of my head

You’re the demon I never should have fed

All I really wanted is you in my bed

And I’m left drowning in a sea of tears instead
We could have lived a life of total debauchery

If you hadn’t made me such a mockery

And made me go all stalkery 

What the fuck is wrong with me? 
Can anyone tell me the answer ?

When it comes to the truth he’s such a good dancer

Inside I’m such a disaster

And in the matter of my heart he is my master
I wish I could get him out of me

And that there was a cure for this heart disease

And that I could lay my mind at ease

But with tears in my eyes I’m still begging please
And as low as it makes me feel to plead

I’m still down on my hands and knees

Anything you want is free

If you just take this ride with me

Deflowered

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My little horror story
My sordid tale to tell
So if you’ll follow me
I’ll take you to my hell

When I was just a girl
The devil came to me
He showed me I was a woman
I could never get clean

Your Jesus never washed me
The blood was my reminder
No one ever came for me
The world was never unkinder

I never had a white horsed prince
Just a beast in ratty jeans
With no one to hold my hands
My wounds still left unclean

Every girl has a horror story
Her own sordid tale to tell
I’ve told you some of mine
A little piece of my hell

Fuck You Fuck Waiting

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Waiting for this day to end
Fuck this life who needs friends
Sorry if I fell out of trend

Fuck you and the things you do
The way you talk the people you screw
I should have stayed away from you

You are like a bad disease
Walking around doing as you please
Empty promises, you’re such a tease

Well I will have no more of this
You betrayed me again and now I’m pissed
So if only for now you’ve been dismissed

And one day you might realize
What was always behind these eyes
And by then I’ll no longer sympathize

So fuck you and the things you do
You’ll have to find someone else to screw
Just remember I’ll get mine to

Moving on

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I’ll always be your baby
Your smart assed little lady
Even though I continue to grow
Away with the wind I blow

You weren’t always there for me
And there were times you caused me to bleed
But for some reason I cannot hate
Even when I know we’ll never relate

All I ever wanted was to take care of things
Now as an adult I can see the strings
The way you treated my sister
Has caused on my soul a permanent blister

Now I need to get away
I’ve payed all that i can pay
I need to start a life of my own
To no longer call your house home