One day….


So sick of saying one day

Why can’t that be now

I’m sick of this fake life I lead

I wish that I knew how
Why didn’t I just feel

And go with what I wanted

Instead of doing the right thing

And now my life feels stunted 
I hope there is a one day

I know I slighted myself 

And you took my.chance away

And put me back on the shelf

Black picket fences

I want to be your Gothic barbie 

And you my hedonistic Ken

And when we find our dream house

We can live our lives in sin
We can live in our dark paradise

Surrounded by fountains of blood

And we can fuck forever 

Like all dark lovers should
And if the light turns bright again

I shall be your dimmer 

And we shall find a place our way

Love, your sexy little sinner

Self afflicted 


I’m sick of being my own enemy

I want to fuck life up

I want to take down this town

I’m going to fucking erupt

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Such a bad taste in my mouth 

And a belly filled with hate

You will not fuck with me this time

You can no longer escape your fate

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You always get away with this

I can’t stand idly by

While you move on with your life

I want to watch you fry

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So go ahead come on fuck with me again

But I promise I’ll watch you go down

I can’t even be your friend

Be prepared to drown 

The dancing demon

Got to get you the fuck out of my head

You’re the demon I never should have fed

All I really wanted is you in my bed

And I’m left drowning in a sea of tears instead
We could have lived a life of total debauchery

If you hadn’t made me such a mockery

And made me go all stalkery 

What the fuck is wrong with me? 
Can anyone tell me the answer ?

When it comes to the truth he’s such a good dancer

Inside I’m such a disaster

And in the matter of my heart he is my master
I wish I could get him out of me

And that there was a cure for this heart disease

And that I could lay my mind at ease

But with tears in my eyes I’m still begging please
And as low as it makes me feel to plead

I’m still down on my hands and knees

Anything you want is free

If you just take this ride with me

Deflowered

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My little horror story
My sordid tale to tell
So if you’ll follow me
I’ll take you to my hell

When I was just a girl
The devil came to me
He showed me I was a woman
I could never get clean

Your Jesus never washed me
The blood was my reminder
No one ever came for me
The world was never unkinder

I never had a white horsed prince
Just a beast in ratty jeans
With no one to hold my hands
My wounds still left unclean

Every girl has a horror story
Her own sordid tale to tell
I’ve told you some of mine
A little piece of my hell

Fuck You Fuck Waiting

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Waiting for this day to end
Fuck this life who needs friends
Sorry if I fell out of trend

Fuck you and the things you do
The way you talk the people you screw
I should have stayed away from you

You are like a bad disease
Walking around doing as you please
Empty promises, you’re such a tease

Well I will have no more of this
You betrayed me again and now I’m pissed
So if only for now you’ve been dismissed

And one day you might realize
What was always behind these eyes
And by then I’ll no longer sympathize

So fuck you and the things you do
You’ll have to find someone else to screw
Just remember I’ll get mine to

Moving on

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I’ll always be your baby
Your smart assed little lady
Even though I continue to grow
Away with the wind I blow

You weren’t always there for me
And there were times you caused me to bleed
But for some reason I cannot hate
Even when I know we’ll never relate

All I ever wanted was to take care of things
Now as an adult I can see the strings
The way you treated my sister
Has caused on my soul a permanent blister

Now I need to get away
I’ve payed all that i can pay
I need to start a life of my own
To no longer call your house home

Reality of love

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“Fuck you “she said with fire in her eyes
As her blood began to boil
“Im sick of this shit ,and this life,
And the constant fucking turmoil”

“You have broken the last straw
It’s time for me to fight back
You do whatever the fuck you want
And I’m left to pick up the slack”

“Fuck me?” He said with a tense jaw
“I’ve always been here for you
Even when you were nothing
What the fuck do you want me to do”

“Fight back from what?
I’ve never raised a hand”
As his voice grew ever louder
“This is more than I can stand!”

“So what are we doing here?” She said
As tears fill up her eyes
“I don’t know”
Was all that he replies

“If you can’t stand me you should leave”
Venom in her words
As they lock in their stare
They both know it’s absurd

This is a familiar road
For them it’s sad but true
But there is so much passion there
True love through and through

Monopoly

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You play me like I’m some game

As if I am the one that is to blame

And all it ends with for me is shame

Sadly though I’m still your dame

I still break my back in vain

knowing there will be only pain

you’re the only one who’ll gain

And I’ll be left in the cold wet rain

All it does is make me insane

Why can’t I get it through my brain

That you just don’t feel the same

And I will never have you tame