You just go on with your life
While im bogged down with memories
You are the one holding the knife
As i remember everything you ever said to me
What goes on in that head of yours
Whats hidden behind those eyes
That makes it easy to walk away from me
As you fill up my head with lies
Whats a girl supposed to do
When you wont get out of her head
I hope to one day forget about you
Hopefully before i am dead
As the sand flows through the glass
I look at how much time has passed
And how i’ve sailed through life half mast
And how i want you to be first and last
But you put me to the side
in such a way that i despise
But i’ll give in when i see those eyes
to you this comes as no surprise
I’ll follow you to the bitter end
And always try to remain your friend
Even when it falls out of trend
In this love im perpetually condemned
As I exist here lonely and weeping
The pornographic visions come creeping
as my heart continues sinking
don’t know what my brain was thinking
i knew in my heart of hearts
you would again tear me apart
and i would again be left in the dark
But i couldn’t help but let it start
Because it always comes down to you
and you always do those things that you do
even though my heart’s been true
I will always be your fool
So until the inevitable end
I will lend you more than an ear my friend
and the price I will tend
No matter what i have to spend
follow me back down the hole
where all the well wishers go
make sure you keep your sins in tow
nothing can be hidden he will already know
So follow me down below
where the devil waits to take your soul
It was never really yours to hold
and you were meant to walk this road
he wants to take it nice and slow
Keep you all out on the row
“for all your sins” he shall crow
And you will feel yourself let go
As you let all your sins blow
suddenly your filled with woe
your sins wrapped up in a bow
You’ve never ever, felt so low
As your judged from head to toe
you have no choice but to let it go
As whats left of you as liquid it flows
you remembered they said you reap what you sow
I’ve wondered what it would be like to kill someone
To drive a sharp knife through the flesh of another person
to watch as i skillfully slice them open
to see the bounty of my perversion
To taste the salty sweet life nectar
To feel the hot stickiness flow down my chin
my victim all alone with no protector
oh let the sweet sin begin
oh how they would bleed for me
As i watch the life light leave their eyes
While they scream for me to let them be
as I bring them to their demise
I was on cloud 9 for once
Then you had to walk in
All those good feelings wasted away
And so we must begin
To take another go on this tilt a whirl
Your love makes me sick
makes me recoil inside myself
And you’ll be gone rather quick
All the endless hours i wasted
time i can never get back
gives me time to think i guess
you’re a tough code to crack
What goes on in that head of yours
I may never know
Because you’ll leave me with my dick in my hand
With nothing left to show
What is it in me
That’s so afraid to change?
I know I need to move on.
Why can’t i rearrange?
What is it inside
That keeps holding me back
I fight so hard to make up for
All of the things that I lack
What was once apart of me
Now feels dead and hollow
Embarrassed for the whole world to see
That I always follow
I’m lost among a sea of people
And yet still I try to hide
It’s as if I feel they’d break me
If they got a glimpse of what’s inside
I grow tired of my complacency
I want to drift away
But I’m always tethered here
Much to my dismay
You don’t really want my view
So I’ll keep it for myself
because my opinion is twisted
I’ll place it on my mental shelf
I’ll think about it later
Twirl it in my mind
wonder why I’m so different
why i try to hide
A part of me is lonely
The other part doesn’t care
I try to numb myself
To the fact my life’s not fair
There are people with real problems
Yet I trivialize small things
I just can’t seem to escape myself
To exist beyond just being
If someday you find this
And i hope that you do
I just want to let you know
It was all because of you
Because without this sadness
I’d have no inspiration
Because we had the kind of love
That could move a nation
All the pain you put me through
Was worth it all the while
Everything you did I’d use
To walk this poet’s mile
And every time my hearts reopened
I’ll have a tale to tell
Because you cause my bleeding
You’re the ink my endless well
Brutal invasions of my thoughts
Why must you test me so
I thought this was a joint decision
Why can’t you let me go
I know that there is love there
But we’ve chosen different paths
I still believe we belong together
And that your my other half
What am I gonna do with you
When you’ll always choose her over me
Even though i love you
This is how it has to be
Dearly Departed Rose 
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