We have to talk

I miss him in the quiet

I hate it but I do

I’ve made some mistakes before

But I really fucked up with you

It hurts to see you move on

Knowing that I’m to blame

I’m glad you’re in a better place

I’m still filled with shame

What is happiness anyways?

And why does it mean so much?

I’ve torn apart a family

I’ve lost my only crutch

I’m sorry that I hurt you

In the process I hurt me to

And there’s no turning back now

No matter what I do

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New lifeĀ 

I can get a life now

Though I don’t know where to start

I feel as though I’m cold now

In matters of the heart
 I want to start this journey

How do I find the road

The one that leads away from here

No more doing as I’m told
Even though I’m wrecking him

I need what’s best for me

He took me all for granted

And left me out to sea
And though this world is scary

It’s time for me to part

Search to get my warmth back 

And piece together my heart 

Mental Purgatory

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Stuck in this purgatory
With no one to share my story
I wish he would come back from sea
I really just want him out of me

Still cant get him out of my head
Makes me feel im better off dead
All of these feelings constantly fed
Makes waking up fill me with dread

I swear that i seduce myself
Cant bring myself down so high on this shelf
You came crashing through no hint of stealth
And cost me my emotional wealth

I need you to come back to me
So together we both can be free
And together we’ll take on the sea
And escape from our purgatory

Bad Parenting

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Fuck you I hate you for everything you did

You were supposed to be there I was just a kid

You set me on a bad path and left me on a skid

And I know you see it differently but it is what you did

You were supposed to protect me

Not poison and neglect me

Who do you think the suspect should be?

You still don’t care you live your life free

Why did you bring me here then

Just to leave me to defend

time and time again

well this will be your end