We have to talk

I miss him in the quiet

I hate it but I do

I’ve made some mistakes before

But I really fucked up with you

It hurts to see you move on

Knowing that I’m to blame

I’m glad you’re in a better place

I’m still filled with shame

What is happiness anyways?

And why does it mean so much?

I’ve torn apart a family

I’ve lost my only crutch

I’m sorry that I hurt you

In the process I hurt me to

And there’s no turning back now

No matter what I do



Staring at your pictures,

Driving myself insane

I just can’t control myself

I want a bullet to the brain

Why must you play these games

You are the man I love

I want to run away with you

You fit just like a glove

But, you say one thing and do another

Typical of your breed

And I am left to suffer

While you fill yourself up on greed


The Key


All you do is stress me out

And you make me want to scream and shout

This is not what life’s about!


I spend so much of my time alone

And still you people cast your stones

And fill my belly up with hateful groans


Why can’t you just let me be

So i can just drift out to sea

Solitude is the one true key


I wish it to be untrue

but regretfully,i hate even you

It’s not your fault nothing you can do


This world has made me so cold

And not care about growing old

And this hate has got such a hold


It’s made me honest to a fault

And take it all with a grain of salt

I really should just be shot


Seems like it would be so easy

Just take the shot and release me

Solitude, the one true key

You’re Dead



I am going to kill her

stab her in the face

make her disappear

a disgrace to the human race


I am going to kill her

although i know i shouldn’t

but if she did these things to you

don’t tell me that you wouldn’t


I am going to kill her

slice her ear to ear

make her my little plaything

make her scream in fear


I am going to kill her

and bury her in the ground

somewhere deep and hidden

where the body will never be found


I am going to kill her

and when the deed is done

I can then rest easy

because now the war is won

Just Sad



Sad little girl

In my sad little world

sad little existence

such little resistance


Why do i go on

Why can’t I be strong

Just want to move along

Don’t want to re-sing this song


Just want this all to end

on who can i depend

my heart is over spent

never to relent


Internal Wars



Seething with indecision

Frantically sorting files in my head

I don’t know which way turn this time

Longing to be dead


I want to give in to myself

Do everything I know I shouldn’t

But rationality is taking over

Oh fuck I wish it wouldn’t


I’m climbing these fucking walls

With this longing stemmed from my heart

How easy to give in and live a selfish life

I’m internally ripping myself  apart


Why do I do this to myself

Fuck I don’t even know

I’ve got to get this shit together

Push this pain back down below