His secret

I want to be your secret 

But a terrific one to tell

But if you’d just let me out sometimes

I know I’d fair you well
I do like our special secret 

But I just want to breathe

Fill up this little hole inside 

And feel the wind shake my leaves 
I love our little secret

But don’t you miss the world? 

We could still be alone our own way

I’ll always be you’re girl 
And I can keep a secret 

So please just set me free 

And when I have my freedom 

I promise you will see 

Wishes……

 

If life was made of wishes 

I’d wish for so many things

Not the things you’d think of

I don’t need diamond rings
I just need stability

A place to lay my head

I would go anywhere with you 

Who really needs a bed?
If life were made of wishes

I would wish for you 

Even after the way you treated me 

I wish this wasn’t true 
I feel as though you’re meant for me

But you just keep escaping 

You know how to work your manipulation 

And I’m yours for the taking
If life were made of wishes 

It would be just you and I 

But my life is not made of wishes 

And you weren’t meant to fly 

Bullet

I didn’t think you’d come back this time 

I thought I made it clear 

Without you I’m not fine 

But you’ll always dissappear 
I don’t know what I see in you 

I deserve so much better

And if you’d only stay away 

I could release this vision of together
But you’re just here to fuck with me

To make sure I lose my mind 

Leave me with all these maybes 

So I know I’ll never be “fine”
I can’t get away from you 

No matter how fast and far I run

Nothing I wouldn’t do for you

The bullet to your gun 

Haunted by the Living

I dreamed of you last night 

There just isn’t an escape 

Can’t get away whilst I’m sleeping

And haunted when I’m awake

I don’t want to dream of Shadows

Or feel this hollow pain

People have real problems 

Mine are in my brain 
Can’t handle this rejection

It eats at me everyday

My mind cannot escape him

It pulls me in separate ways 
Haunted by the living 

A tale we know to well

I’ve nothing left for giving 

And too much left to tell 

Goodbye again

 

If you cared you wouldn’t talk to me

You would leave me to get a life 

I’m tired of relinquishing  power to you

And you revel in twisting the knife
I’m sorry it has to be this way

I thought you were the one

But you wanted me for convenience 

I was just for fun
And as much as it pains me

I have to walk away

I need to step back into reality

And I’ve finally nothing more to say 

Pathetic

Secretly still waiting

Surrounded but lonely

I know I mean nothing 

I know it all was phony 
But my heart is not intelligent 

Always too many beats behind

Always wondering where he went 

And they say that love is blind 
But I see where it’s going 

And my heart just doesn’t care

I wonder what he’s doing

And why can’t he  play fair?

So many some days

I’m so drunk with remembrance

And melancholy with hope 

My feet so tired from this dance 

It’s time to noose the rope 
I am ready to walk this walk

And drift you out to sea

You can’t even talk the talk

And you just can’t let me be 
I don’t know who “me” is anymore 

I’m lost all along the way 

And I’m fearful of what’s in store 

And the price I’ll have to pay
And if you all remember me 

Remember me today

With grievances in my eyes 

And a heart full of someday 

Again and again

And here I am alone again

Here comes that hole again

Forgot to play my role again

Got myself feeling low again

Drown the heart you stole again

Your love takes its toll again

When will I feel whole again?

Starting to lose my control again

Fighting to save my soul again 

As it goes spiraling down the bowl again

Time for you to quit the show again 

I’m getting hit with “no” again

Feel I’ve nowhere to go again 

Trails of Blue

What is my deal with you?

You’re really not that great

But my heart runs away with you

And I am left with the fate
Why can’t I get away from this ?

No matter how hard I try 

But the moment that you insist

Into the lake of fire I fly
How can you even go on?

Hurting people the way you do?

Living with the pain you spawn? 

Leaving a trail of blue 

One day….

So sick of saying one day

Why can’t that be now

I’m sick of this fake life I lead

I wish that I knew how
Why didn’t I just feel

And go with what I wanted

Instead of doing the right thing

And now my life feels stunted 
I hope there is a one day

I know I slighted myself 

And you took my.chance away

And put me back on the shelf