Why couldn’t you let me be

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Even after all your forsaking

My heart is still yours for the taking

Even after all my yearning

I continue on never learning

stuck in this world of complete delusion

How did i Fall  for this illusion

Let you engage a full intrusion

How did we end with this conclusion?

Why didn’t you just let me be

Just let my heart be young and free

Instead of taking it In your custody

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Playmates

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Of course not!,why would you

Give me the time of day

I’ll just stand on the sidelines

And wait for you to come play

you have lots of other playmates

But i want to play with only you

And i stand back watching

While they all get to play to

Existance

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You don’t really want my view

So I’ll keep it for myself

because my opinion is twisted

I’ll place it on my mental shelf

I’ll think about it later

Twirl it in my mind

wonder why I’m so different

why i try to hide

A part of me is lonely

The other part doesn’t care

I try to numb myself

To the fact my life’s not fair

There are people with real problems

Yet I trivialize small things

I just can’t seem to escape myself

To exist beyond just being

Monopoly

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You play me like I’m some game

As if I am the one that is to blame

And all it ends with for me is shame

Sadly though I’m still your dame

I still break my back in vain

knowing there will be only pain

you’re the only one who’ll gain

And I’ll be left in the cold wet rain

All it does is make me insane

Why can’t I get it through my brain

That you just don’t feel the same

And I will never have you tame

Rewind

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Okay here we go let’s press rewind

And we’ll go around another time

except this time I won’t be blind

And maybe you will make up your mind

All i need from you is to keep your word

Don’t act as if my proposal’s absurd

As if it’s like nothing that you’ve heard

because you know all that has transferred

so don’t lie to my fucking face

Or i will leave you a fucking disgrace

And how i love the way you taste

i can still feel our last embrace

shoot me up with all your lines

and help me leave this world behind

take me away I’m outta my mind

I shouldn’t have done this I should of declined

Because you’re only here to wreck me

And i can’t just leave you be

Even though i can still foresee

the ending where my heart will plea

Miles

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I still check my mail

with hope everytime

how is it that you’re able

to get me off your mind

let me know your secret

so i can be rid of this decay

so i can lose this regret

And you won’t feel so far away

you still find ways to punish me

even across all these miles

I still feel your heart beat

And picture our shared smiles

How is it you don’t feel this

your heart must be hard as stone

I wish that we didn’t exist

In this lie we both call “home”

Storm eternal

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my thoughts have become cloudier

yet thoughts of you are still vivid

I hate that i still think of you

It makes me so damn livid

Why can’t i escape from this?

No matter how far you run?

your thunderstorm is overwith

but mine has just begun

I haven’t heard a thing from you

not a whisper or a thought

it seems you have forgot about me

I unfortunately have not

You make me feel so crazy

you’ve beaten up my insides

and no matter how far you run from this

we both know that you can’t hide