Envy

Why can’t I have what you have
I deserve it just as much
Why am I left with nothing
While your life is full of luck

Why must I work so hard
To never get anywhere
Whilst you have everything handed to you
Its almost too much to bare

Why can’t we switch lives
And you can walk the mile
While I lay back
And torture you with my smile

Why can’t I just enjoy what I have
Can I ever be happy with me
I just wish I didn’t feel this way
And i wish I wasn’t so green

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Internal conflict

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Why cant i fight this feeling
Building deep inside
Why do i keep these secrets
And always try to hide

I fear they may be right about me
I live a double life
I show one side to others
But darkness lies inside

I need to get away from me
I hate the way i am
And all the ones who love me
Participate in my sham

I dont know how to change this path
Seems i’ll always live in shadow
I have no one left to blame but me
I’ve surrendered in this battle