Addicted 

I’m a sex addict the internal disease 

I want them all to use me

To do just as they please
I want them all to make me their whore

Leave me lying here on this floor

Make me beg for more and more
I want my insides all filled up

I want to feel you erupt

Until you feel you’ve had enough
So come on baby abuse me

I promise you’ll never lose me

And we can live in exctasy 

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Regrets? 


I want to run away with you

But my feet are cemented here

My head is always drifting

I live my life in fear 
I know I should let go of you 

But my heart holds its grip

I linger on ever word you say 

It’s so easy to slip
And though I live another life

I hold on tight to you

I’ve given you the best of me

You know this much is true 

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White knuckles 

I need to occupy my mind
Find a way within myself
To find what it is i need to find

I need to hold on to this light
Dont turn back to darkness
Just grab and hold on tight

With the white knuckle grip you have inside
You have come so far
Just hold on to your pride

I feel my tenacity faltering
I dont know what to do
I feel my mind realtering

I cannot keep my strength
I feel the poison build back up
I try to keep it at length

I hope its all over soon
If i cant go on without you
I fear it spells my doom

So Dark

So sick of sadness

Tired of searching for light

I’ll never find happiness

So why not give up the fight
I’ve burned all my bridges

And changed all the locks

Handled all my business

I answer as hell knocks
What are they to do to me

Better than what’s going on here

I’d rather burn for all to see

Than live with all this fear
I thought that I was loved

Brittle little lie I told myself

I can’t go on this way 

I feel I need some help

Someone Please

Someone kill me please

I can’t take this any more

I’m tired of feeling beaten down

And I’m tired of this floor
Someone kill me please

You would be doing me a service

I’ve got no place that feels like home

I’m tired of feeling useless
Someone kill me please

I’m out here on my own 

I acted like I didn’t need anyone 

And now my covers blown
Someone kill me please 

What else can I do 

Put me out of my misery

Let my story end with you

I Am Darkness

I am the darkness

I am that being that puts the chill in your bones

The breath on the back of your neck
I am the very definition of evil 

A succubus

Don’t tempt me 
Betrayal beckons 

No one ever came for me

As no one will come for you
I am the scream of terror in the night 

The shadow in the trees

The creaking in your home at night
I am your invisible enemy

Just watching 

Waiting for my opportunity to feed 
I am your worst nightmare 

The dark cloud hanging over your thoughts

The sounds of the night that instill fear

Envy

Why can’t I have what you have
I deserve it just as much
Why am I left with nothing
While your life is full of luck

Why must I work so hard
To never get anywhere
Whilst you have everything handed to you
Its almost too much to bare

Why can’t we switch lives
And you can walk the mile
While I lay back
And torture you with my smile

Why can’t I just enjoy what I have
Can I ever be happy with me
I just wish I didn’t feel this way
And i wish I wasn’t so green

Secret Beacon

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I was so lost for so long
And in walks you a shining beacon
Shedding light on all that was wrong
While i tried to stay in shadow

What is it that makes me love you
Im never jilted by your indifference
It has everything to do with you
I am not your only preference

Why do you hide from me
You know you want to talk
I promise not to steal you away
But we must walk this walk

If what i want is closure why cant i walk away
You dont even want me
But my feelings are here to stay
Though we are not meant to be

Nothing is written in stone they say
Yet my heart traiterously falls back to you
Youve already gone too far away
And theres nothing i can do

I anxiously await the day our paths cross
Because oh i know they will
And maybe i can feel something again
My dirty little thrill

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My little horror story
My sordid tale to tell
So if you’ll follow me
I’ll take you to my hell

When I was just a girl
The devil came to me
He showed me I was a woman
I could never get clean

Your Jesus never washed me
The blood was my reminder
No one ever came for me
The world was never unkinder

I never had a white horsed prince
Just a beast in ratty jeans
With no one to hold my hands
My wounds still left unclean

Every girl has a horror story
Her own sordid tale to tell
I’ve told you some of mine
A little piece of my hell